♥ indefinitely

2012-01-29T00:26:00.000+08:00

Pretty niece ♥

Great catch up w them.

Where do we get all our feelings from? If you cut the human heart open, you won't find it.

There's no organ in the human body which is scientifically proven to be the source of all our emotions.

The brain gives out signals to the body to bring the tears, laughter, pain, shivers and all the jazz,

but what really give the emotion itself?

It's so hard to control, to get on these emotions. Sometimes I just wanna lock it all up and throw the key away so that I'll never revisit those feelings, emotions or even thoughts ever again.

Fyp Presentation & IVP Semi finals. Hope everything will go on smoothly.

Yeah, the first to forget is the happiest.

Good Night People :)

2012-01-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Been neglecting this space recently. Anyway Happy CNY people! :)

IVP Basketball had started, and it's the last year I'll be playing for this league, time flies.
Life has been good recently apart from all the school assignments and tests.
& yeah, had an argue w wu lili last week, it's the first time we had cold war w each other.
All the misunderstanding and miscommunication that we are unaware of.
I'm glad that everything is fine now.

Everything is just so unpredictable, especially the relationship between humans.
It's like at one moment you are or can be a lover/b.friends/buddy with someone for years,
and the next moment everything just vanished and break apart. How fragile can everything be.

Psalms 17
7.Show me the wonders of our great love,
you who save by your right hand
those who take refuge in you from their foes.
8. Keep me as the apple of your eye;
9. From the wicked who are out to destroy me,
from my mortal enemies who surround me.

:)

2012-01-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

The Friendship.
The indescribable feeling. It's like having the emptiness in your heart.

The feeling whereby nobody understands you at all.
It's like you'd gave up trying after everything that had happened because they'll never understand.

It's like I'm trying my very best to pull you up after all the downfall that you'd faced/encountered

and yet deteriorate all alone here.

After all, it's never worth it anymore.

It's never easy to maintain a friendship.
How fragile everything can be.

2012-01-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

♥ xoxo.

2012-01-05T13:02:00.000+08:00

The Cousin.

In life we'd said things that we never truly meant, do things out of anger and tend to fan off emotions

without conscious. It always take time to realize and learn, that's the process of growing up.

On a happier note, It's time to put the 'P' plate in the carrrrrrrr because I freakin' pass my TP! :)

Happy Birthday ErJie! <3

2012-01-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

Happy 2012 :)

So what are your new year resolutions?

Last year was definitely a life-changing period for me, I'm glad that it's a new year,

at least everything in 2011 had come to an end.

No turning back. All of us has regrets and moments that we failed to cherish, but it's over.

Life still goes on as per normal.

That aside, I'm feeling really happy.

Time to send my transcript to Australia.

xoxo;

2011-12-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

What's gonna happen tomorrow?

Looking back, everything seems like a dream to me.

I have to stop living in delusion.

I miss you, Joix.

Hurry come back, got lots to update you.

2011-12-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

吴克群 - 我能给的


有些话不能表达 有些话当时我没有讲.

2011-12-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

Spend some time reading past posts in my blog. Everything seems so different now.

And I can't deny the fact that everything were so memorable.

It's true that absence makes heart fonder.

Heading out! :)

Merry X'mas Peopleee!

2011-12-24T02:41:00.001+08:00

It's never easy to maintain a friendship.

It take years and years to build up trust and relationship w one and other.

From strangers to someone I'll always feel comfortable w whenever I'm w them.

It's so amazing how things work out this way.

Everyone is busy w their own life, w their school, work, family and stuff, yet these people above would

always make the time and effort to organize something so that we can spend some time together.

& these are the best friends I love and appreciate most :')

N. A. SH. W

Appreciate every little things in life, you will never know when you'll lose it eventually.

2011-12-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

Last day of school this year. Dinner in townnnnn.

After awhile, you will learnt the difference between holding hands, falling in love.

kisses that doesn't always mean something, promises that can be broken &

goodbyes that are sometimes forever.

you can erase someone from your mind, but getting them out of your head is another story.

2011-12-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

Five simple rules to happiness:

1) Free your heart from hatred

2) Free your mind from worries

3) Live simply

4) Give more

5) Expect less

It's 12/12.

2011-12-11T22:30:00.001+08:00

FYPz.

Growing up.

It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want,

and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.

I believe everyone does something for a reason.

Keeping option to myself doesn't mean that I d judge.

Being nice to someone doesn't mean I've an agenda.

Saying things I mean, is what I believe.

Some people just wanna walk into your life to trip you over, and I believe that those people aren't even worth your time looking at.

Some people are there to stay awhile, to complete your life a little.

I still hate this phrase "People come and go, that's part and parcel of life"

Pang, you'll always be important to me but I have to let you go.

I'll still be here, goodluck to you and your girl :) <3

xoxo.

2011-12-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

When I was a kid, all I wanted was to grow up so that I can have my freedom and not curfew.

Back then I felt that my dad was over protective and unreasonable because wherever I go, he would always call and ask where am I and stuff as if I'm gonna rob a bank. I would always deem that he's suspecting me more than he's caring and when time passed, I turned to be disobedient and unmanageable.

Thinking back, I felt so stupid and over the years it made me realized how much my dad really love and care for me, he's always there whenever I needed someone to talk to. Making sure I'd already have my dinner before I go to bed, giving me a hug whenever I'm near him, buying me my fav food and cute little stuff to make my day.

I love you dad.

Growing up is seriously a scary business.

When I was a kid, when I was a kid ....

Everything is less stressful because we'd our parents/siblings to solve all our problems.

and the problems were like "I didn't score well in my English spelling", "My Math homework not done" etc.

But now, it's even more than these little problems that we encountered in the past.

Now that I'm graduating from poly, growing up has taken on a completely different meaning.

There's university to consider, job to find, stress about saving enough money. On top of all that, you no longer have room to make mistakes. Everybody tells you it's absolutely fine to make mistakes when you're a kid. But now, mistakes could potentially mean the loss of a job or going the wrong direction in life.

Decisions.

I'm tired of thinking, apparently I hate school so badly naoooooo! >:

It's you that matter most;

I miss you.

2011-12-06T19:11:00.000+08:00

This girl came to stay over, we'd so much to talk about & I really

enjoyed the time spent together :) Readddd your blog! I'll think about it :')

Anyway thanks for being there whenever I needed someone most :)

Love you always net! & as always I'm just a text away <: ♥

2011-12-02T21:47:00.001+08:00

"The Hardest Thing" - Tyler Ward

A still framed photograph of you, and me together.

Is all I have of me and you anymore.

We were so in love and we thought it'd last forever.

But in the storm, we were torn.

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you.

And i wonder why we both walked away.

I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.

Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue

And I miss, I miss you.

If I'd only knew the words to say that would make you turn around (turn around)

I'd say those words to you more than a million times.

It's been forever, but that hasn't changed what you mean to me.

Darling can't you see?

That I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you.

And i wonder why we both walked away (We walked away)

I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.

Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue

And I miss, I miss you.

I'm sorry for all I did, what I said and things I hid.

I'm finally over me..

Is that too late for you?

I can't imagine where I'd be

If you had never rescued me

You gave me hope to live, and I need you.

Yes I need you!

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you.

And i wonder why we both walked away. (Walked away)

I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.

Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue

And I miss, I miss you.

The lyrics, totally heartfelt.

I really miss you.

Repeat mode.

Goodnight world, Goodnight wu lili :*

2011-11-30T15:25:00.000+08:00

She always brighten up my day :') ♥♥

Been feeling sick and lethargic for the past few days and I feel that I'd wasted so

much time idling around during my free time.

Am currently reading 'breaking dawn', can't wait for the movie part 2 to release!

Indescribable feelings, I would always imagine myself inside the story w them :/

Sometimes I really feel lucky to be surrounded the people I love and of whose presence I completely embrace. Can't ask for more.

Lynette sim MAID~ Just wanna say I'm always here, just a text away :D

I might not be able to solve your problems but I'm willing to lend you my ears

& go through the unhappy times w you! ♥

Goodnight world!~

2011-11-25T00:34:00.001+08:00

Unaccomplished day.

Once again, I've lost vibe in blogging. Feeling totally uninspired yet obliged

to construct an entry to prevent wasted visit from readers, especially joix :')

Anyway, how was your week? Mine was ... I wouldn't say spectacular but it's not that bad either. School is definitely wearing me out due to FYP, training and tests. Am sick and tired of everything and I can't seems to manage my time well. I've been spending lesser and lesser time w my family. I've been going home late, waking up early for school. I didn't even have the chance to see them for days :/ I should try to manage my time well!~

Some of us would tend to regret about cerain decision made, about certain things we do or say, and wish we could do something to erase or change the history.

and we often ask ourselves ..

What if you could start everything over again?

What if you had known eachother earlier?

What if I'd made another decision, will things be different?

What if this incident didn't happened, will the situation change?

In life, there are plenty of 'what if's, but I guess it isn't something that we should ponder about.

History is not gonna change for us, it's better to accept the present, wake up to reality and live life as it is. 'Don't regret in whatever decisions you made in life because at that particular moment that's what you wanted most'

Nothing is forever, especially love and happiness

Love dies, don't pretend like it has never happened before.

Face it. And stop living in denial.

Coz' no one's gonna love you eventually.

We didn't contact for more than 2 months, I'm glad that you're doing well dear.

Happy for you.

Life goes on :)

Breaking dawnnnnnnnn tml! :DDDD

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

Goodnight People!

2011-11-15T03:59:00.002+08:00

Best buddddddy

It's 3:52 AM now, and I'm still doing on my literature review since last night.

I've yet to find the determination and motivation to work even harder for Fyp.

All the assignments really gets more than just on my nerves.

GG because there are more to come.

On the happier note, It's unbelievable because the thought of getting my

driving licence is nearer and nearer, probably 3-4 more lessons till I get to book my TP.

Eggggggcited :))

"The 3 'C's of life; Choice, Chance, Change.

You must take the choice to take the chance if you want anything to change."

Everyday seems like a routine. I need a run way.

If you are the one that matters enough, he will show it to you, prove it to you and

make you feel it.

2011-11-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

Net <3
Had been ages since I last met this girl.
Even though we're not as close as before, we would still text and update each other once in awhile to keep the friendship going. Reminisce the times when we went out together for swim, making spaghetti or other food when we were bored, balling, shopping together and more.
The best part was, we get to see each other for almost everyday :')
Aww I miss those times!
Oh just wanna say I never wanna lose you net!

Love you!
This post is specially for you!
d cry ah maid ♥

2011-11-06T19:04:00.004+08:00

Always enjoy going out w this girl <3

Haven't been consistently updating recently due to school and other stuff that's occupying
my time. Well life has been pretty fine for me, simple yet enjoyable w family and bestfriends
around me. Can't ask for much, I'm happy w what I have now; that's what that matter most.

Overseas to study next year? Lots of 'What If' in my head when this question was raised up.
My dad said it's a good opportunity for me, and Joix said that
if I'm going, she will be going w me too :)
Had a long conversation w my dad the previous night, I always enjoy talking to him
about almost everything. He would always assured me w things I worried
the most and made me feel so secure w him around.

Is the effort that counts.
Joix Wu Yunlang, I'm so glad to have you in my life :)

2011-10-31T14:21:00.001+08:00

Second Sis's wedding :') ♥

I'll blog soon :)

Miss you.

2011-10-20T10:20:00.001+08:00

J³ ♥

dalang's hair.

Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, it doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It’s not giving up or giving in. Letting go isn’t about loss, and it isn’t defeat. To let go of something is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. It’s having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting, it’s learning, it’s experiencing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that once made you cry, laugh, love and grow. It’s about all that you had and all you still have. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. It’s growing up, realising that a heart can sometimes change and it can also be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, clear a path and set yourself free.

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret. Letting go isn’t winning, and it isn’t losing. It’s not about pride, and it’s not about how you appear, it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past.

I got commitment, attention span and seriously self-discipline issues and

if I don't put a stop to it or control my own emotions and thoughts,

I believe I'm gonna sink deeper.

Hey, Showing your fears and vulnerabilities does not make you a weak person.

2011-10-16T11:33:00.004+08:00

Tumblr:

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

What's true?

2011-10-15T00:28:00.005+08:00

dinner w xuan, deserie and pangpang.

The best budddy! :>

Week two. School, pretty stressful.

I guess due to e last semester, everyone's bucking up this last time round,

the level of competitiveness in class increases, gotta work double hard! ~ :/

Hrmms driving, still as excited when it comes to one or two hours before driving lessons

:> I can't wait to get my license! :)

Someone told me:

"Happy or sad, You got the whole control of how you want your life to be".

"The past will never bring you to your future.

You create your own future, it's all in your hand".

and it made me think hard once again.

Meeting JOIX wu lili tml after driving lesson ~ shall head to bedddddddd early :)

Goodnight people!

I miss you.

2011-10-12T02:24:00.001+08:00

The Gorgeous Outing.

I need to come empty stomach whenever I meet him in future,

because the whole outing we will be eating, eating and eating.

Always enjoyed myself w them :>

Goodnight people! :)

2011-10-10T18:06:00.010+08:00

Yay, rebonded hair.

It isn't how much time you use, but rather how much effort you willing to put in to make things successful eventually".

School had started one week ago. Everything seems fine except for my laptop that had been giving me problems recently. The fickled of the screen, bluescreen and other issue, went to get it fixed by going down to Funan twice but the same problem still exist /:

I miss you;

Anyway, Happy Birthday Mom!

2011-10-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

Overdue Photos.
Bkk tripppppp!

A fruitful trip!
Enjoyed the trip w every single one of them.
I'm so gonna play well for the last season.

GoodNight people!

"Love is when no one else can hurt you more, but no one else can make you happier
at the same time" - runawaytrain.tumblr.com

2011-10-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

USS tripppppppppp! :)

♥

USS trip was indeed an enjoyable one.
To my astonishment, we sat the roller coaster for more than 20 times.
Can't believe it.

I had a conversation talking about the past that offered me and got me thinking.
Sometimes, some people just wanna walk into your life and trip you over.
I guess those people are not even worth your time looking at.
Let alone about feeling anything for what they'd done.
Remember, you rule and don't let anything break your zen.

Everyone has a weakness, but I have two; everything you say and everything you do.

2011-10-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

Pretty girl. Best buddy.
It's 1st of October, I can foresee more and more stress coming :(
Another episode.
There are so many times I just wanna see your face instead of staring at my phone
and sort things out. It's the same process all over again. Now I'm getting this inexplicable feeling. There are so much I wanna say, but I don't know how to.
Have you noticed my absence yet?

2011-09-30T18:03:00.002+08:00

Bkk! More photos to be uploaded! :)

Sent my laptop for service. Been some time since it broke down again.

Feel so empty without it.
I realized I d really put emotional well-being above everything else like others.
Some people make decision on how happy they are, but this d apply to me.
When I decide to do something, even if it's the least favourite or something I dislike,
I'll still go for it. I d know what's the solution to it, but if you make decision based
on how happy you are, will people deem that you're giving up?

School's gonna start next week! I'm so not looking forward to it.
Life's good. Ups and down but at least I managed to get over certain stuff
and lead a better life than before.
Basketball trip to Thailand w the team, guess it was a memorable experience for me :))

Bed time!
On a happier note, I'm seeing wu lili tml! yay.

GoodNight!

2011-09-25T01:28:00.004+08:00

♥

Trademark face.

Pretty girl.

This person always act shuai! hahahhaaBlur face.
26th Sept. Time flies.
The new and challenging month is drawing nearer :/ time to enjoy the remaining holidays.
Headed town for movie - Johnny English Reborn and some catching up!
Thanks to both of them because they totally brighten up my day :')
♥ Family dinner, there's always endless conversations to talk about, sharing problems each of us faced during work/school, serious talks, cracking jokes, laughter everywhere.
How fortunate am I. Appreciate what you have now, that's what that matters,
I definitely will.

The dimensions of reality is difficult to latch on. Simple things like trust, faith, belief
become complex to the human brain.
How else can you find closure?
I guess it's about seeing the beauty in wreckage, to apologies to yourself and move on.

For the first time, in a long time, my life is real. It doesn't matter who ends up with who,
because in some unearthly way, it's always gonna be you and me.
- Dawson's Creek

"I've learned that you can get through bad times, as long as you have people who love you"

Goodnight peeps!
Bkk here I comeeeeeee! :D

2011-09-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

The unforgettable friend.

Real driving okay! hahahaha.

Have you ever felt accomplished?
Felt relieved that you found yourself from where you derive.
I deleted all the entries, letting down all emotional baggages.
Ask yourself the most queerest question in life, and see what's your answer to it.
It's life, and there's gonna be more to it.
I guess I found my answer to the riddle of life.
Thanks dad for reminding.

The lethargic feeling is kicking in, late nights, the main culprit.
Shall head to bed early.

Goodnight people!

2011-09-18T23:29:00.001+08:00

She's back! ♥

Thanks for all your presennnnnnts bei! :)

Korean fooooood.

Life's been pretty busy recently even though it's a term break.
1 more semester in RP and I'll graduate!
A part of me wants final year to end because it's getting so unbearable,
yet another part of me wants poly to start all over again.
I guess it's time to think of what I wanna do after graduating.
I always have fear in growing up especially when the thought of stepping into the
working world appears, it scares the hell outta me :(

I'm so gonna enjoy this holiday till school reopen!
Malaysiaaaa and Bangkok here I comeeeeeeee! :DD

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

2011-09-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Maybe.
Maybe we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that
when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe it's really true that we d know the real value of treasuring until we really lose it.

Maybe the happiest people d necessarily have the best of everything,
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past.
After all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of the past mistakes,
failures and heartaches.

Maybe living life to the fullest is the most practical thing to do now rather than
being sad or affected by any other things else.

Uncertainty.
Do you know the feeling of eating strawberry? It looks tempting and juicy at fist glance,
but it brings you a feeling of uncertainty.
You do not know if it tastes sweet or sour and you're afraid that once your
teeth rip its flesh apart, sour juice will infiltrate your entire mouth and ruin your taste bud. That's the uncertainty that I'm feeling right now.

I'd done trying, no regrets.

2011-09-10T18:23:00.017+08:00

Retracing Steps.

At every different point of life, someone was always there. But it was always a different someone. And each time something like this happened, I was always confused, lost and had no define direction in life. This particular someone would just go away one fine day and you either find yourself alone again, or search for a new soulmate.
When you found someone that knows you so well and can be comfortable around you, you don't have to bear so much emotional burden, you'll know that there's always someone who really cares for you and its not the same kind of love that your parents can give.
I remember one year ago, there was once I was devastated and I gave that someone a call, without hesitation he came down immediately even after he bought his dinner at the food court to look for me. That's the kind of soulmate that I never wanna lose, because no matter what he will be always there. Until a point of time, I realized some people don't stay in your life forever, it's just a season. Though it's difficult to accept that fact, life still goes on.

Two particular people that I miss so so much but I won't state his/her name.

I used to have this close friend of my that I'd lost one year ago. She's always there for me, came up to my house late at night and took a cab home without complaining the cab fare and waste of time. Sometimes we could do our own stuff when we were together in my room, she'll read a magazine or anything and I'll do my own packing of my room or even go to the next room to talk to my mom. She used to have a towel as her "chou chou" and I always have my maomao w me. We always go shopping, sun tanning, chalets, almost everywhere together. If I encountered any problems in school, home, relationship or if I feel dejected or sad, she was always there for me, just a call away and she will appear in front of me in minutes.
I really miss that kind of accompany & I miss her even more.
I'm happy that you're happy :)

Another person whose always there for me. He always remember to bring me a fork when I have my noodles, always there for me no matter what. He always appear in front of me and will give that cheeky face that I always wanted to squeeze. There was once he piggyback me to the lift and we both fell, I won't forget that little scene. I was always late during meet ups, one hour or two he will definitely wait until I appear. When I reached, he won't even have a slight complain about anything. Every competition of mine, he will always be there to watch me play, to give me the little confident that I never had. Giving little surprises I love that makes me feel so so touched. He's always there when I tear, no matter what he'll definitely rush to where I am. Even how bad my attitude was, he will tolerate me and make me smile again. Sending me home from school without fail and making his way home alone and alot more.

That's life, the people I'd lost.
At least I'll definitely remember every little memories that you all gave me.

I don't always tell people little details about myself. But I decided to type out and think hard about little quick facts about me that only certain people know, knew, realized.

1) When I don't really know you, I don't talk as much as usual and some of my friends always said that I'm anti-social but the fact is that I'm not, and honestly sometimes I really like some people that really wants to make friends w me, but I just don't know what to say. I may sound a little disinterested but its because I do not know how to respond to their enthusiastic behavior. I'm not anti-social, I don't bite.

2) I always keep things inside and not saying out until someone really ask.
Someone once told me, 'Some things is better to remain unspoken'. If the current situation
is not that bad then why say out your heartfelt to make things even worst?
Sometimes shutting up isn't that bad uh?

3) I really hate being alone at home. There was once when I was out of love, and I tried staying at home for weeks. Till then, I realized how alone I was. When I opened the door, the whole house was empty, not a single shadow, voice. I really hate that kind of feeling. I'm glad that there's one group of friends that always came to find me during late nights if I need someone to talk to.

4) The fact that if I'm in a bad mood or if you pissed me off. I usually don't talk as much.
It either means that I expect a lot from you or you're making me really upset.

5) I don't like to use chopsticks, but fork. I guess only certain people knows about it.
The feeling of someone remembering little details about you makes your day, really.

6) I love surprises and of course surprising others. But in life even how many surprises you gave to people, you will never get a whole lot of it. It's better to be practical I guess.

7) And yeah, I hate my freckles. It is deem to be cute there but I really don't like it.
When I was young, I used to scratched it away, but it's always there!
Unique part of me, because not many people have freckles. Well I'm gonna accept it,
not gonna scratch it away anymore. teehee*

8) Before I sleep, I always like to fold the bottom part of my blanket where my legs are because when I was young I always fear that someone or something would bite my legs from below.

9) I love to eat chocolates, it always made my day when my mom bought a whole lot of chocolates home and in the past someone would always surprised me with that, aww.

10) On a boring, mundane side, I love long bus rides. I enjoyed sitting w my knees propped against the front the back of the seat in front of me, coiled up like a boneless snake drowning myself in the music that I love to listen and staring out of the window like a senseless idiot esp on the way home from your house in the past. But now everything seems so so different now.

And as so to conclude, not to deny it who do not have flaws?
I'm a crybaby.

I'll stop everything regarding you that's affecting me.

Slimming down even more, cool.

2011-09-06T23:19:00.005+08:00

♥

Always enjoyed myself w them.
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Incoherent stories.
This is not the life that I imagined it to be, but I could say it was almost what
I had wished one year ago.
Time passes, it is 6th September, year 2011.
Two months away before we begin a new year. Once again, life had flashed by before my very own eyes. I had lost myself in transit. I saw fragments of memories coming back to me. I don't remember anything remarkable at the moment. If life were in pieces, I wish they were all around the world so that I could travel everywhere to pick them up, piece by piece ..

All of a sudden, I feel terrible. It feels like I'm stuck in limbo.
I miss you.

Goodnight.
Guess I needa determine.

2011-08-31T03:04:00.002+08:00

A day out w the girls :)
Holland.V's Haagen Dazs. Town.

Several question ran through my head which made me realized how important life is.
We get so tied up with everything else, we don't notice what should be instead.
We take for granted everything that have been placed before us and assume it will always be
there. Unfortunately things don't work that way.
How many times do we have to lose something
or even someone before we should treasure it/them?

What matter most in life is who I have w me, not what I have.
What is life when no one is there for you? What is a big house w no one to share it w.
What is a distinction in your certification where there is no one there to see and share the happiness w you? -Lifeless.
I believe there's no such thing called 'I've got no time'.
Some times you are the one controlling of your own timing, its your choice
to put the effort and time to spend the time w your family and close friends.
After all you only get to live once, live the best out of it.
'Never regret something that made you once happy'.

So this is it, I'm finally 20.

If you could read my mind, if.

2011-08-29T02:05:00.018+08:00

Birthday celebration.

Guess I shall let the pictures do the talking.
Happy birthday :)

Thanks for the birthday present and more.

Miss her so much.

Midnight celebration w mclyne, shihui, valerie, alex <3

Love you dad.
Surprise celebration prepared by family. aww so touched. So glad to have them in my life.
Enjoyable. Thanks everyone that had celebrated w me :')
Really enjoyed myself to the fullest.

Goodnight people!

2011-08-23T01:06:00.001+08:00

The best buddy.

dear! :D

It made me think back realizing that sometimes its better to meet up
and talk rather than texting.
Sometimes the message you wanted to convey to that someone wasn't what they think it is. And seriously texting may lead to many assumptions.
So what's there to assume where the answer is just a call away or just a short meet up?
Assumption, it just something that is believed to be true but it might not be what it is.
Some rumour, pictures but did you ensure, verify first before assuming
and judge things your way?
Afterall what's your motive? Coming back to judge that its my fault again?
I've got my freedom, you left long ago so stop saying all the unnecessaries.
It only make me detest you even more.
Please leave some good memories for me to rmb rather than all these.

On the brighter note, life have been pretty awesome.
Guess the chance of going Australia for studies after poly is getting higher and higher.
Future, it made me feel so stress when I think about it, was talking to my elder sister e other day and she told me that when one grow up into the working world, having a family or whatsoever, life will eventually become a routine. Everyday will be like a repeat of another.
It freaks me out when I think about it.

Life goes on.
I miss you Grandma :(

2011-08-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

Guess who.

Time for bedddddd~
Goodnight.

2011-08-15T23:40:00.005+08:00

I really wish August didn't arrive so soon.
I'm not anticipating to my birthday, I've no idea why.
Anyway thanks for everything, really appreciate all the effort you'd made.

I'd stayed at this page for really long, I don't know how to put everything in words,
everything that I'm feel.

I hate changes, I hate this phrase of my life. But well, I hope things get better.
Are you reading? If you are, I just wanna say 'I miss you'.

Goodnight people.

2011-08-11T22:07:00.003+08:00

Don't let things slip away,
especially those morning texts that will make your day.
Familiar?
'Click to enlarge'

'Changes'. It will always be constant, and I really hate changes.

Goodnight people.

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

2011-08-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

Grandma, you'll always be in my heart.
I miss you.

I still can't accept the fact that she's gone, everything just happened too sudden.
The indescribable feeling, made my heart felt so so ache.
She couldn't expressed out what she want,
I'd tried guessing what she wanna say, really tried all ways but I just couldn't,
the only thing she did was shaking her head and shouting for pain,
yet the only thing I could do was touching her, sitting beside her, doing nothing.
The scene still appear vividly. Yes at least she won't be suffering anymore but
I really can't accept the fact. It's the first time I see my mom crying so loudly, the feeling
was unutterable. The only thing I can say now is treasure the people who are still around
because you wouldn't know what will happen the next second, you wouldn't
just like I went to see her before that day, and she's gone the next.
It's useless crying after it'd happened, because you can't do anything anymore.
it's more practical to do what you can when the person is still around.
Start treasuring people that's important to you.
I will, because I never wanna regret anymore.
I'm still glad I managed to see her before she's gone.
I'll see you in heaven Grandma, I love you :'(

2011-08-01T13:49:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Dajie. I love you :)

Jolted awake by a nightmare last night, please tell me that dreams
will never happen in reality.
My sister was right, close friends will definitely be lesser and lesser when we grow up
if we don't maintain it well.
Dread my birthday to arrive, really. I'd never had such feelings before.
Guess I'm gonna face it.

True love
People tend to express love as something beyond control.
sometimes giving excuse to behave responsibly.
I guess true love shouldn't be governed by feelings. It's expressed by actions,
the willingness to commit, After all it's a choice.

"Value the people who sacrifice their something for you,
because maybe, that something was their everything".
You'll never know.

2011-07-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

Just had to do an impromptu post about certain confusion.
I love to bloghop, looking at certain situation in life in a distinctive manner,
seeing different kind of happening occurs, and see things in a more wider perspective.
Some people don't, that's why they don't understand, that's when stereotyping take place.
Some people definitely have their own ways in handling certain situation or problem,
so why 'talk back', 'criticize'? What's wrong?
Just saw things in some people's blog, some people have a blog to flare out their anger,
say about their heartfelt, about their day. It's a choice for you to go to their webpage.
So why put those nasty comments on their tagboard? So what's their motive?
Jealousy? If you don't like that person just go away, he/she might not like you too.
So what for do such things? Put yourself in their shoe, if you have a blog, and when
someone write nasty comments on your page, how would you feel?
If you d like it, then d do the same.

In the quieter moments it made me realized that there's no such thing called
'I can't live without you'.

Define 'happiness'.

2011-07-20T22:48:00.001+08:00

Too many times we put our hearts on the line,

hoping that this time things will gonna be fine.
And too many times, we play the waiting game
because we are too afraid of making decisions.

If you d understand my silence, you won't understand my words.

G.Night people :)

2011-07-16T14:13:00.004+08:00

Miss them and definitely e process of the game.

It takes a few in a million to understand. It's totally fine to be different here.
But then again, who sets a standard or norm, & who decide what's deviant?
Guess I'm not gonna put myself down for the sake of others like I used to,
hrmms, the truth is how many me can you meet out there?

Just feel that everyone in this world is unique in their own ways,
everyone is different and by that I meant physical appearance
as well as character, attitude.
We could all learn from our mistakes, weaknesses, develop our strengths
and learn to accept one another for our differences.
But no, the society that we are living in is just too practical
- physical appearance come first, and the rest come later.
The fact is the world is never fair. Deal with it.

Life, pretty enjoyable.
At least I'd planned w certain stuff that affects my future.
And I'm not gonna waste my time.
My dad says: if you wanna lead a better life in future, start doing something now.
Yep, I want and I'll definitely work hard for it.

Action speaks louder than words, hey I feel it.
Absence makes heart fonder.
I miss you.
It's 16 :)

2011-07-08T20:11:00.003+08:00

Haven't been seeing them for ages, had a great
catchup w them.

I wish sometimes instead of waiting for me to trip on my mistakes, you care more.

Why is it when I'm trying my best in everything,
some things just gotta pull me down?

What is not good enough? The fact that putting in an inch of effort is
that demanding a burden when I am still silently cautiously
deciphering your mind to figure that everything is depreciated.
I hate to compare, gonna pick myself up.

I'd lost track of everything.

Love,

me.

Hey, I guess you'll never understand.

Goodnight readers.

2011-07-04T23:37:00.006+08:00

最熟悉的陌生人.

Overdue Photos.

Wall Climbing.

Changes. Everybody wants to be a better version of themselves, but

the world doesn't adapt their perspective towards you just because you changed.

Global warming doesn't eliminate itself just because one person conserves.

Live with it.

I realized some people draw near to you only if you got something to offer or if they think

that they could obtain something from you. What are true friends?

Can't believe that I had gave up on my favorite basketball, really can't believe it.

People that know me really well should know that I wouldn't give up on something

I love so much unless there's no choice left.

Life goes on.

Life is full of choices, one decision made could change every single thing in life.

People will definitely say that I'd made the wrong decision and all because of past incident.

But what's worse than feeling indifferent towards your own feelings?

Yes I can't please everyone, as long as I'm happy what's wrong?

Have been enjoying my weekends, thanks for everything.

Imy, Miss.CPJ

2011-06-27T01:12:00.000+08:00

♥ love spending time w her :)

Life has been great after internship. No more routines, no more waking up early,

no more dragging myself to work, no more stress :)

Have been meeting up w langlang more often recently because she's going overseas soon, back to her homeland. Though she is only going for a few months, it seems like forever.

Kept persuading her not to go but its her parent's decision :(

Sad.

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Mistakes, we all make them. They usually start w the best of intentions.

Like keeping a secret to protect someone or getting distance from the person

we've become. Sometimes we d even know what mistakes we've made to get us

where we are or we figure it out just in time to make things right again.

But every mistakes happens for a reason - to teach you a lesson you would learn

and hopefully never make the same mistakes again.

Forgive and Forget.

I miss you.

2011-06-22T00:43:00.006+08:00

There's a little truth behind every just kidding, a little curiosity behind every just wondering,

a little knowledge behind every I don't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care.

So how much do you know me?

A long bus ride home strikes reminiscence of events from the past.

Every song reminds me of every little moments spend.

Things change over time, live with it.

At least I know its worth keeping you in.

Goodnight people.

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

2011-06-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

Cryptical.

I'm someone who is easily affected by people's comments and words,

but someone once told me this "you can't please everyone".

Why draw hesitation from what people might feel towards your situation?

What's worse than to feel indifferent towards your own feelings?

You determine what you do to make yourself happy.

It's time to learn how to accept.

Lesson learnt.

2011-06-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Feelings.

I guess it's more than meets the eye.

There are so many feelings that fills beyond my emotional brim

Nonchalance, it weighs out all cynical thoughts.

When you lost all inspirations, back spacing while you find the right words to replace another.

Tongue tied.

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Gift from God ♥

Good Night People!

2011-06-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

I'm sure you're the one I wanna spend my forever w.

Weekends was a fabulous one.

Goat farm, wall climbing at Yishun Safra, home-cook dinner :]
Thanks for everything, really appreciate it.
Photos will be uploaded, soon.

I don't understand.

Sometimes I try too hard to comprehend.

Could it be that I am expecting too much of this or could it be that

I'm afraid that history might repeat as before?

Or could it be that I have turned into such a skeptic,

so much so that I couldn't handle my thoughts all at once?

I wish I could be your everything but sometimes it made me move a step back again.

Perhaps this is the safest distance we'll ever stay with nothing more to expect,

I've no idea.

Weekends hurry here please! :(

Last week of internship *wide smile*

Good night People.

2011-06-07T21:45:00.008+08:00

Miss this girl so much.

Hey no one's perfect here.

I see different kind of situation surfaced at work every single day.

Some People are so judgmental. They down your throat at every mistake you make.

Why? Life is so unfair.

"There comes a point in life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past,

there is a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

People from the past made you who you are today.

Someone once told me this:

"Some people are meant to be 'seasonal'. They are there to complete the season,

and when time is ripe, they will leave eventually." and she continued,

"Just so you know, some that had left you, are the people you are better without

and you will come to realize it, soon."

How true is it? I've no idea.

160611?

Goodnight People

I miss you.

2011-06-04T21:09:00.001+08:00

This will be the only domain place for my emotions.

No where else, definitely not on my face.

I've been putting too much thoughts even in my mundane.

Let it go, I'd found back what I wanted back so so much.

Though it seems like a nightmare years ago,

at least words&actions convinced me.

2more weeks to end of internship! :D

GoodNight!

2011-06-01T22:34:00.008+08:00

The Passion.

I'm really impressed w people who dare to follow their dreams

and not follow the social norms.

It's like they have their own unique way of processing things in mind and make things

way beyond possible which turn them who they are now.

How wish I'm one of them who thought things the way they do.

Yeah who will? Once or twice, it may be fine but subsequently people won't

even entertain you anymore, true?

On the side note, working has been pretty stress for me though it is ending soon.

What I'll do everyday during work is, waiting for lunch then knock off.

The next day the same routine starts all over again.

AND I have phobia answering calls now, when the phone rings the first reaction will be "damn" w the *panic* face. Grrrrr.

I've got over you, really sure of it.

Good Night people :)

2011-05-30T20:26:00.001+08:00

Overdue photo, damn I miss her badly I swear! :(

Totally lost vibe in blogging, have no idea why.

What are you gonna do when things always d go the way you wanted?

Fight for it? Give up? or Don't do anything at all?

Sometimes it made me ponder because most of the time I chose to give up which is

an imprudent choice because I don't get to learn and gain anything eventually.

It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want,

and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do.

So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.

— Nicholas Sparks

I'm sick and tired of working,
I wanna travel round the world! :(
Nighty.

2011-05-26T22:24:00.006+08:00

Always enjoy myself w them :)

That's what you'll do when you d own a DSLR.

Appreciate.

Appreciate little things in life. Perhaps that is why I can be amused by
any insignificant matter. It may seem just a short minute but should we belittle these
things just because they aren't the most important or unworthy for a wide smile?

Sometimes you wouldn't know when everything will come to an end,

so appreciate and treasure what you have now, I guess that's what that matter most.

Internship will end at 3weeks time.

For the remaining 4 months, I'll be concentrating on stuff, like my driving and

certain things that will be important for my near future.

and yes, I'm sure that I'm gonna work v hard for it no matter what.

Why does the hardest days seem to last the longest?
你的心里话,我全想听.

GoodNight people!

2011-05-21T22:25:00.003+08:00

I was someone who swoons over poetic love confessions.

Why fairytale d happen in real life?

It's always the male lead appearing and saving the one he claim to love in distress

or even trying his best to keep his love from another heart throb.

I guess there are reasons why people labelled it as drama/fiction instead of documentary/non-fiction.

Sometimes I just wish that life was easier for me.

I'd been constantly thinking of my future,

thinking of the next step I'm gonna take after I graduate,

making sure that all these steps I make now, will lead to a better future.

Somehow, everything has been fixed and I just hope everything could go on smoothly.

D wanna trudge on everyday without an agenda.

How vulnerable human relationships are.

Engulfing whatever that's left of us.

This space seems to be the only thing keeping me sane now.

It's 21th May 2011, I'm alive.

Goodnight.

2011-05-18T20:51:00.007+08:00

Friendship.

Someone once told me that when you grow older your group of friends will become

lesser and lesser. I think it's v true.

Both friends will think that the other is busy,

and they're afraid that they might disturb the other party.

As time passes, both friends will think,

"Let the other contact me first",

After some time, each will think " why should I contact first?"

From then onwards the friendship started to drift.

And finally, the memory becomes weak due to the lack of contact

and they forget each other as along the way they'll meet new people.

How ironic can it be?

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4 more weeks till internship ends!

Met up w 吴丽丽 and Yanjin, it's always enjoyable w them ard.

Yes I'm going Australia! :)

GoodNight people.

I miss you, Miss.ChuaPJ.

2011-05-16T01:04:00.001+08:00

I miss the process of the game.

Ever felt uncertainty?

May it be love, life or future.

I realized sometimes it's better to take things one at a time, step by step

and eventually everything will come together in a piece someday.

Who don't yearn for perfection? But nothing is gonna be perfect.

Everything is happening too fast, some things have yet to register in mind and ZOOM!

It's over.

When will you ever understand?

Goodnight.

2011-05-14T23:32:00.006+08:00

It's really exceptionally difficult to forget someone

who gave you so much to remember.

It's like when you're struggling & trying so hard to forget that person,

he/she doesn't know and bother anymore.

One word for this, 'Pathetic'.

School is having a 12 days study trip to Australia, so I decided to ask my dad about it.

Apparently he allow, was really shocked.

So I continued asking him if it's possible for me to further my studies there

as I'm able to take a degree there for the current course that I'm taking now.

He said he will consider about it as my aunt is staying there.

Maybe that's another alternative for me after poly.

There are lots more to process in mind but it's time to sleep now.

Goodnight people :)

At least I'm really happy w what I have now.

2011-05-11T20:34:00.009+08:00

If you still miss her.

Was hovering for a long while thinking about what to post.

Just an hour ago I was sorting and tidying up my d drive folders as it was all in a mess.

Saw some photos which made me reminicise the past so so much.

Promises.

I guess it's just an empty word. In life most of the promises were not been fulfilled.

And you just got to accept the fact. Even when promises are kept,

after awhile people tend to forget every single one of them.

Perhaps promises are made to make someone feel contented at the particular moment.

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I'm so so tired, shall head to bed now.

Ahhh, Yingsui dear! I miss you!

Goodnight people!

2011-05-09T19:51:00.005+08:00

I love wasting time w you.

Certain things are not as easy as they seems to be,

Yes some words are simple yet powerful enough to make someone sad

but some are just heartfelt.

Internship is ending in another 1 month plus, I can't wait to end this tedious daily

routine. Tired of waking up so early, doing the same old thing everyday.

Gave work a miss today, hate to be sick.

Good Night people.

2011-05-06T22:03:00.004+08:00

Someone that's v important in my life now :)

Boeboehaejusaeyo ♥

Ups and downs in life.

If things work out the way we want to, nobody will be striving and working hard

for the things they want to achieve in life.

Why human don't appreciate people and things around them until they lose it?

Why human take things for granted when they're not suppose to?

Why human repeat their own mistakes despite multiple lesson learnt?

Thousand and one why. Changes and improvements needed to be perform so that

regrets will go down to the minimum.

Working = Stress

I rather go to school than going for work though I really love the

environment & people there.

Yay weekends! :)

Goodnight people!

2011-05-04T22:03:00.001+08:00

吴耘朗 吴耘朗! Thanks for everything, love you ttm! :) ♥

mwark.

2011-05-04T20:11:00.005+08:00

A little effort makes someone smile.

A little assurance makes someone feel secure.

A little appreciation makes someone feel worth doing more.

A little change makes someone feel paranoid.

Even a little reliance on others makes someone comes with heavy expectations.

A little bit of everything makes up something.

So what's the solution?

I realized that I want to achieve too many things, and because

of that they all ended up in a flop or imperfectly done.

Also, with too many things on hand, I tend to make hasty decisions leading

to mountain of regrets.

Not too late to learn. I guess Patience is the word.

Read your post, it's somehow obvious how your portray things.

It may not be your heartfelt or may not be me,

but I guess I should have get what you meant from the start.

I'll get you out of my mind and stop everything regarding you that's affecting me.

You said before, "Some things are better to be kept unspoken".

I think I get the whole picture now.

Fullstop, life goes on.

Weekends was a fabulous one, enjoyed myself to the maximum.
How wish time could just stop.

Good Night people
Weekends hurry here! :)

2011-04-30T00:24:00.006+08:00

The day out :)

He look like Ben Yeo right!~

♥ her ttm!

Everything happens for a reason.

Why everything I do, it still reminds me of you. I thought when time passes,

memories will slowly be in fragmented pieces and fade away?

The more you force yourself to forget, the more vivid it will be in your mind?

Sometimes I never felt like I'm doing good enough in certain things,

but at least I'm trying, adjusting, and changing.

Look, nobody is perfect.

Please d judge things based on one incident it won't be fair, it really won't.

I'm in love w my weekends!

28/04/2011 - Happy Birthday to you :)

2011-04-27T21:16:00.006+08:00

The process of growing up is getting more and more challenging,

When you're even younger, you have all the time to find out any thing you want to know,

even to explore and find out who and what kind of person

you want to walk into forever with and in the process of learning more

about yourself, your limits & boundaries.

But everything seems so different now.

Trust, one of the most vital factor between human.

I'd once trust someone so much, yet when things went wrong or turn ugly, he/she betray it.

But eventually things are not suppose to turn out this way.

You made me see things even clearer.

I'm still glad because at least you're once in my life.

What happens when a Taurus met a Virgo?

Can't wait for weekends! :)

Goodnight People.

2011-04-23T23:06:00.003+08:00

I had so much thoughts to put into words but somehow when I see you

I'm at loss in words here. In short, it left me emotionally drained.

Mixed feelings, unexplainable thoughts, insecurities. Why?

"All the things that break you, are all the things that make you strong.

You can't change the past, cuz' it's gone and you just gotta move on"

-Carrie Underwood-

Facts, I hate changes.

2011-04-19T20:20:00.008+08:00

Thanks for being there whenever I needed you most ♥

Wait for a person who pursues you, who will make an ordinary moment seem magical,

someone who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats or t-shirts and appreciates when you dressed up for them, someone who turns to be your best friend

where you can share almost everything with, wait for someone who will place you

at the center of the universe, because that's where you belong to.

Wait, that's the word.

Well, I miss you.

Weekend was a splendid one though it was just a simple one :)

I guess I'm having a diet plan, all my favorite food placed on the table

yet I can't have any of them :(

Lynette Maid Sim! If you are reading this, just wanna tell you I miss you! ♥

I'd read your blog, I'll be strong.

We should meet up to catch up w each other real soon! :)

You're the most beautiful thing I will keep in my heart.

Good Night People.

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

2011-04-14T23:15:00.009+08:00

To a certain point in life you will start to feel tired of chasing and expecting,

I felt it & I don't know why I feel this way but the feeling here is hella.

I don't wanna look back in another few years and whine about how life isn't good

or even fair to me because half of the chances to success are in my own hands.

Needa be more practical.

The key to success is not to give up.

Shall start doing something to fulfill what I want in life.

I saw this in tumblr:

"Yes I've made mistakes. Life didn't come with instructions"

Somehow disagree w this sentence.

Besides disagreeing, it made me ruminate certain things in the past.

What can I do to stop thinking about the past?

Trying.

Anyway, not to forget, Alex and Welly!

Met up w them after work for dinner at Mandarin Gallery.

Thai restaurant?! Grrrrr, apparently I dislike Thai food but enjoyed myself w them!

WELLY GORGEOUS TAN can you d be so sensitive w things around you?!

I'll always be here for you so stop being paranoid k! :) Just a call or text away.

On the side note, work have been freaking stress,

meetings, calling of schools, email, excel, DEADLINES.

& because my supervisor will be away for two weeks, she handle the project to me.

Experience gained, learned and process things,

but I worry that I won't be able to present a good job to her.

Came to work half an hour early to sent emails to schools,

Skipped my lunch to call schools.

Yes, stress is the word and the worst scenario is that there are deadlines

for certain work that I'm doing. HELP~

Need to Persevere.

Yay! Weekends!~

2011-04-12T00:30:00.000+08:00

The best cousin.

Always enjoyed my day w him even though it's just few hours of meeting up.

love him ttm :)

2011-04-11T23:25:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday :) ♥

Out to town for dinner! Steamboat!

Once again, Happy Birthday Xuan&Ignatious :)

It'd been such a long time since we last met each other, everyone has their own

activities work school and we somehow promise that we will meet once in awhile to

catch up w one another :)

Grrrrrrr, feel so cranky now!

GoodNight people!

2011-04-10T16:11:00.008+08:00

A little too not over you.

I have idealized this boy to the point where he is perfect in my eyes, and because of that I can't be satisfied w anyone else. But I can't get w him either, we cut off ties,

made things clear, but he doesn't know that I think about him almost every day.

He probably thinks that he was completely insignificant because I lied.

For being so proud and presumptuous to think I would get over him in two minutes.

I never thought I'd hold on this for so long, to a ghost of a person.

To an illusion of a person, that isn't very likely a true reflection of him anyway.

And for the way I feel now, I have only myself to blame.

I miss you b, I really do.

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Life had been pretty simple, work loads have been increasing, more and more meetings,

Excel everyday which makes me wanna sleep so badly.

Have you ever provoked someone through texting?

Just wanna say, I can't express myself well through messaging.

Out for basketball :)

2011-04-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Thanks Nigel for fetching me to work early in the morning! :D love you bro!

Teehee.

2011-04-09T19:58:00.000+08:00

It's wiser to let go.

2011-04-05T07:15:00.004+08:00

Sometimes when I say I miss us it simply just mean that I'm thinking about

the happy memories, not you anymore, don't worry.

So affected about a particular issue, things had happened 6months ago yet

I'm still like that, but well I'm just stuck w the memories.

I'm letting every single thing I'd cherish about you trickle off my hands.

Give me one more month and I'll sure get over.

Shits happen, you just have to find your way to solve things and get things right.

I find that as we go older, we become more complex and selfish to certain things, I feel negatively easier than before, perhaps it is because we are more aware of reality?

weekends weekends hurry here! :)

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

2011-03-31T23:34:00.004+08:00

http://indefinitely12.tumblr.com/

Tumblr is super addictive.

GoodNight people.

Ps: Mark my words.

2011-03-30T21:41:00.007+08:00

Little secret.

I never understood the reason for someone to move on from a relationship.

It's not like you're going to move on but it just that you are going to tell your heart to stop

thinking about the person every single day until it finally becomes a routine

and until you don't notice about it anymore.

That is,until you see the person again and have to remind yourself again.

The fact is you can erase someone from your mind,

but getting them out of your head is another story.

I keep all your texts you send to me cuz' I'm afraid that's all I'll have to remember you by.

On the side note, It's the fifth week of work for me and all in all everything had been pretty fruitful. Enjoy working there so much, everyone there is ultra nice and helpful!

Am I like dreaming?

Time for bed! && I can't wait for weekends!

GoodNight Folks! :D

2011-03-20T21:10:00.008+08:00

I'm still not accustomed to work yet though it will be the fourth week tml.

Besides sitting in the office doing work, I'd attended and run several events,

and I realized that it wasn't easy at all, great experience though.

Last week, I visited the dentist for 3 times!

Imagine all your favorite food placed in front of you but you can't

eat any of them, but porridge :(

Guess my diet plan start from here.

I'm reading "The Third Victim" by Lisa Gardner.

What a thrilling story, can't wait to finish up the entire storybook!

To a certain point in life, perhaps it is good to know when to let things glide.

It's pointless to be bothered by things that shouldn't be affecting you anymore

& it is better to be constantly reminded that you need to focus on what you have

rather than what you don't or something you'd lost, then you'll think that life

treats you better this way. That's at least what I'm striving for now.

It's time to reassess my priorities.

It's Sunday, yet I'm missing my weekends already :(

Time for bed, Goodnight people.

2011-03-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

Throw away? How ironic is that? Understood!

Anyway, will have a proper post soon!

Goodnight People! :)

2011-03-15T23:24:00.004+08:00

langlang~ ♥

It is so quixotic in this practical world where practicality trumps fantasy

to see that there are people who still believe in dreams.

Beside believing, dreaming is another way that could be taste by all.

Dreams allows one to distracted from the bleakness of the current situation to fantasis on

an alternate reality, where all is good and rosy, at least in the mind for a v brief moment.

The sad thing is that troubles cannot be dreamed away,

possibilities cannot be dreamed into reality :(

I dream about you, alot.

Life had been pretty mundane, everyday seems like a routine and I realized

it had been ages since I last played basketball!

Haven't been attending hornet's training regularly due to work,

guess I should start attending next week when work is much more stable for me.

Went out with langlang, watched Red Riding Hood, I shall rate it 6/10 :)

Had been enjoying my weekends more than before.

On a side note, besides attending several meeting per day,

working had been pretty fine for me. The workload was fine, supervisor was ultra nice

and I had been coping well though it had been just two weeks.

Strangely, sometimes I would imagine switching roles with some people in the office,

I would always wonder,

how would I face and solve the situation/problem surfaced in front of me,

how could I look for solutions? would I do a better job?

Weird I know, but at least my mind is processing!

Ps: I miss those times where you actually held my hand at random times

telling me how important am I to you.

I miss those times where you would always squeeze my blackheadddddddddddddd

though its v painnnnnn & how I actually complaint or react but then again you would

still continue and give me the cutest smile that I always want to see.

All the photos and songs still remind me of you.

Guess time will be the best healer and all the reminders will fade over time ..

v tired!~ Putting on my braces tml! :)

Time for bed, Goodnight people!

I'll be happier.

2011-03-08T20:40:00.013+08:00

Some people say that ...

You can't make the same mistake twice.

The second time you make it, it's no longer a mistake, but a choice.

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't make such a stupid mistake, I wouldn't.

But well, I'd learnt and realized things.

I shan't repeat the same mistake, change for the better, move on.

Anyway, I'm pretty happy with my life now, bet you're happy with yours too.

I'm over you, guess it's time to proceed to the next stage/level of my life.

At least, I'd gone through some part of your life, with you.

Wish you best. I'll remember all the memories I have w you, forever I swear :)

I'll definitely miss you.

This is really the last post for you ._.

Takecare b.

2011-03-07T19:35:00.009+08:00

Life is too ironic.

It takes sadness to know what happiness is,

Noise to appreciate silence, and absence to value presence.

These conversations have been going on and on for so long and I'm so sick and tired of it.

Lack of communication, immature thoughts and actions are just adding into the problem.

I guess God makes me deal with all these shit so that I can grow up and out of these

mortal stupidity. At least I get the whole picture now.

Friends, I miss the five of us spending time together in secondary school.

Though things that I dread and never wanted to happen, happened,

It made me miss you'all even more, esp you, you should know who you are,

after all we'd spend so much time together in the past.

PS: Anyway I'm really really happy for you because at least you are

much happier than before :)

On the side note, working is hell for me.

sometimes it just make me wonder if my continuous pushing for improvements and

amendments is being negatively perceived. I thought in work or anything else we do

we should put in extra efforts to read through every contribution and making sure that we have a proud piece of work at the end of the day?

After all Working is much tougher than schooling, Persevere is the word.

Met up with Shihui Alex Nigel Welly yesterday for Breakfast and

Stayed over at Alex's, always enjoy my day with them around;

They will never fail to make me smile. ♥

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langlang~ I miss you badly! :(

Don't stress yourself at work, go to bed early so that you won't be late for work the next day!

and and and and and

Please don't skip your meals before I killllll you! hahahahaha ♥ you ttm :D

GoodNight Readers! :)

2011-02-25T22:30:00.005+08:00

It'd been quite some time since I last blogged.

Am enjoying my one week holiday because I'm starting work next week! :(

I'm learning driving now and I seriously cannot believe that I actually drive, it's like a dream after the lesson hahahhaa freaking scary!

Anyway I realized I found someone that I could actually count on

and share my everything with.

She once told me that I'm v important to her and that she'll never ever wanna lose me.

She's always there when I needed someone.

She'll hug me like nobody's business when she see me.

We bickered like there's no tomorrow and laughed endlessly,

We quarreled but sorted things out right away and get even closer than before.

She'll always call me immediately if I send a sad face to her and

text me randomly to make me smile.

When I first met you, I didn't know you'll become so important to me.

I love you langlang ♥

Goodnight :)

2011-02-20T20:35:00.012+08:00

Sisters's Graduation :) ❤

Aw, so cute! hahha

Attended my sisters's graduation lunch. Officially a doctor, so proud of them, really do.

Dinner w family; it's always filled w joy and laughers, can't imagine myself without them.

Current Mood: Nostalgic.

Sometimes I''m unhappy over certain things I could never have,

depressed over things that I've lost that used to be part of my possession.

Just how vulnerable everything can be.

How I used to go through verse after verse of song that makes me feel so

good at some point of time.

Yet now, I hated several songs because every single word sung just makes my

heart aches.

I guess I just needa find myself back.

But seriously sometimes, I miss us.

At least I'm simple and not complicated like others.

Goodnight people! :)

2011-02-18T23:58:00.001+08:00

Omg, Ashton Kutcher is super H-O-T!

I realized, I miss you.

Goodnight people :)

2011-02-13T20:42:00.001+08:00

Aww. 倪安東 ♥

"Just go with it" was Awesomeeee!

How great it is if there's a chance for me to be inside the scene w

Jennifer Aniston, Adam Sandler.

It's like when you're watching the movie, you really feel like switching some roles w them.

Hahaha what a thought, it's impossible. But I really wanna go NYC in the near future,

at least I'll get to see some of the real life scene than simply by watching movies.

UT week, Had been studying these few days though there are tons of distractions.

Bought IPhone 4, yes that's the main cause of distraction.

Driving next week! Can't wait though.

*When you finally let go of the past, something better comes along - Tumblr.

GoodNight Folks :)

2011-02-13T19:52:00.002+08:00

從妳的眼角慢慢地明瞭
我能做的很少
原來妳藏著傷但不想和我聊

妳選的電影像某種預告
不坦白的主角
最後流著眼淚堅持獨自走掉

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道妳留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案卻撕掉不要

呵護地祈禱溫柔地討好
愛能讓人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道我們和你們不能比較
但我的愛多強悍出乎妳預料

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道太美的回憶像副手銬
越是掙脫越纏繞我比妳明瞭

2011-02-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

She's really nice.

Back to reality. I've got really packed schedule this week, next and the following one.

and of course not forgetting about my attachment on the 28th.

Well, everything is going on smoothly for me, at least now.

And I really hope things will remain like this,

no more nightmares at night, no more heartaches in the morning,

no more dejected moments, and all. Because I really dislike these feelings.

Things changed but heart don't?

It's like an inspiration, showing me that life is more than just you yourself.

It's like you saw the best out of someone.

It's like you really wanna do even better than the past.

It's like every moment you experience, it made you learned even more

I'd learned, accepting to changes, changed for the better.

So what's more than an empty thought?

Maybe the key here is not about whether I'd moved on or let go,

but more to the next step that I'm gonna take, carefully.

I'll be Happier

Goodnight People :)

2011-02-07T22:13:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhh!

GoodNight People.

2011-02-07T20:59:00.010+08:00

JOIX

Went town w langlang~ & Omg I spend 100bucks! >:(

Time to save money! I'll blog soon :)

UT next week, needa work harder for more Bs! :)

Never wanna say goodbye.

其实爱对了人,情人节每天都过.

2011-02-05T06:00:00.006+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

Primary School Friends.

Siblings :)

Third day of Chinese New Year, went to Yixuan's and Ignatious's for visiting.

Ice-cream, Mahjong, Card game, Photo taking, Wii, Talks & Steamboat.

What an Enjoyable time spend w them :)

Midnight, went to have supper w Nigel, Alex and went to fetch Png to have coffeee.

It'd been ages since we last met for supper and have htht together,

& omg I still couldn't believe Nigel actually drive! hahahahah.

It's 6am now and I'm heading to bedddddd!

GoodNight people! :D

2011-02-05T02:00:00.006+08:00

Chinese New Year? Pretty plain this year,

It's totally different without my uncle around :(

Miss him a lot, but well our CNY continued without him.

It's the second day, and I guess everything seems fine.

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I hate the cold weather when I don't have my jacket with me,
I hate how I feel that another round of nasal congestion crap that is coming,
I hate to worry about different things every other day,
I hate the fact that I'm extremely lazy nowadays,
I hate it when I miss you terribly but I can't do anything about it anymore.

I realized that I'm too indifferent about things and people around me. I do not remember
little details, dates etc and it's extremely hard for me to remember what I'd said few days back or even where I placed my stuff. And, the best example is texting, I could just stop replying people half way because I'm busy or whatever. I could read and close without even replying.
Guess I needa change this bad habit of mine.

Going Ignatious house tml w primary school mates :)

I miss you,
Sometimes simply just seeing you online is enough.
I'm half way there.
GoodNight people :)

2011-02-01T12:07:00.008+08:00

Lynetteeeeee! ♥

Trademark face

Life had been pretty mundane yet somehow enjoyable.

I've no idea exactly how I feel, but I could sense that my

priorities/interests are shifting again.

I guess as we grow older, our perception, interest or even priorities changes.

Am glad that at least I have a little direction now but still, I don't like being so fickle.

Told myself that I will try to put everything behind, a fullstop to it and just

let every single thing I had cherish about you trickle off my hands because

no matter how hard I salvage, guess the crack will always remain the same.

At least I'm doing well now, really.

Still happy that you're happy :)

It's the first day of February. Wow time flies.

Okay going outt-ttt soon! :D

Goodnight People!

2011-01-29T23:31:00.004+08:00

elder sis's wedding :)

Love my BIG family.

In the day :)

Night time :)

Nothing gets better than this.

I always enjoyed gatherings like this with my family, even if it's just a simple dinner or talks.

That's why I love my weekends so much.

But one by one my sisters are gonna get married soon,

and once they have their own family, everything might change.

As their little sister, I'm always the one who gets the ultimate pampered

and most attention, but then again, I'm afraid that in future we might not

spend so much time together like now anymore.

Gonna tell them this because I don't wanna be neglected by them so badly! hahaha :/

Yesssssss pretty dresses and new cosmetic! :)

GoodNight!

2011-01-27T17:28:00.002+08:00

It really scares me, I realized I'll be turning 20 this year.

When I was younger I wanna grow up so badly, but now I'm like dreading to.

Got jolted awake by a nightmare last night, hate it when I'm dreaming

of things that I shouldn't be dreaming anymore.

Chinese New Year is arriving in a few days time, bought clothes online

but I'm still shopping for moreeeee this weekend, I guess.

I'm having my attachment next semester, at least a new environment and life,

who knows I might meet more people there.

"If things work well, it's wonderful, it's a bonus. But if it doesn't, take it

as an experience, a lesson to learn to work or do even better next time".

GoodNight Readers! :)