April.

After half a year, I'm finally back to blogging. Totally lost vibe in it and I guess
nowadays people don't usually view blogs as much often anymore.
Life has been pretty challenging, decision plays a crucial role in everything you do now especially at this age,
it's like a crossroad in life; to study, work, relationships etc. and one wrong decision might just change the whole situation upside down.

Happiness is when you have someone to share it with.
I'm really thankful for this boy here, like many other relationships, we argued badly, had cold wars, saying mean words to each other when we were pissed or even had the urge of wanting to give up on this relationship. But after everything that had happened, it makes us stronger than before.

I realized it's really difficult to maintain a relationship. Two people being together, spending most of their time together needs alot of compromising, understanding and trust. Lacking of one could lead the couple to no where. For me, I'm struggling and lacking of all of those stated above and am really trying to overcome.


Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
There is still time, for things to heal, change and grow. There is still time to be surprised, hopeful and uncertain .. but we are still going on, you and I.

Family time

The bonding and the time spent together, it's something irreplaceable.
Weekends will definitely be mundane without them, can't ask for much ❤
I haven't been blogging much recently, too preoccupied with school, work, family and J.

Life was and is still dull, it's like a routine but I'm satisfied and happy though.
Time passes, people change. Sometimes people change for the better and sometimes they morph into a completely diverse person you have no idea where the person you used to know so well went to.
Some friends judge/gossip based on what they heard and spread those untrue rumors, what's even worst is when they are somehow or rather close to you yet do this kind of things.
But well, life is too short to hold grudges and harbor bitterness, cherish  the people who have been with you and are always with you. Friends are always friends no matter what, every friendship goes through it's good and bad phrase.

Goodnight
xoxo;



 'It's difficult to keep your relationship growing when the focus is primarily on the negative'.
I don't focus on the negative but everything that have yet to happen I will think and assume it negatively so that when it eventually happened, at least I won't be too dejected to accept things. 
Well, usually too much expectations leads to disappointments right? 

After experiencing myself and witnessing others' heartbreak, 
it is very difficult not to think negatively.
It isn't easy maintaining a strong and happy relationship; when time passes, people get used to each other, everything will be taken for granted, people will be less appreciative .. 
It made me reflect on our relationship time to time, too much to learn ..

Many people are not willingly to change and compromise in their relationship, some can't even stay still and be committed to one. I thank God I found you, someone who tolerates me, trying to learn, improve and compromise in this relationship, someone who constantly thinking of ways just to put a smile on my face, someone who invariably assure me through actions, accommodating and pampering me so much ..


Although there are times when everything seems to be so blunt, where we can't seems to talk things out,
 I'm glad that you didn't give up on me yet holding me even closely to you. Yes we can't predict the future whether we could stay forever like this but I just wanna say I treasure every moments w you 
and I'll never give up on you. 
Love you baby.

Treasure, because life is too short for us to love through and through .. 

Came across this

Life will never be perfect, no matter how hard you try. Even if you pour your heart and soul into it, you will never have the perfection you seek. There will always be broken hearts, there will always be days where nothing goes right. But I have accepted and learned that even the most imperfect things will always be made better with love, laughter and joy. -Joe Bliss

Life will never be perfect, Nothing is easy in life, Nothing lasts forever.

Ps: Lynette Sim, you are misssssssssed :(
xoxo;

Back to this little space after months of abandonment.
Guess I was too caught up with school and had shut myself from the world and social circle,
 too oblivious to the happenings around. Finally exams are over, it's time to shift my focus.
Am reading this book 'Men are like Waffles, Women are like Spaghetti'. This book really helps to enlighten me in some way, especially how guys and girls think, perceive and act in a totally different way.
It stated: 'If I say something that can be interpreted in two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, I meant the other way'. At a particular moment if someone is angry, they may not mean what they'd said earlier...
I'm opening a "Blogshop" next month and will be selling Craftholic bears and rabbit as well as Dresses!
Do drop by my Facebook or Instagram next month! - jerbbbbel_

xoxo;

Hello peeps. I promise I'll blog sooooon. 

Twenty years from now, I am gonna look back and remember that you were that one person who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words;

 that person who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself;

that one person who carried tears on her shoulders after every fight, arguments;

  that one person that accepted every decision I made;

 that one person who knew who I really was and

 that one person that made the biggest difference in my life. 

She's my bestfriend, sister, girlfriend, soulmate, my everything.

How was your Christmas and New year? Mine was literally AWESOME. 

Life's been great for me during these two months, can't ask for more. 

Neglected blogging because I wasn't active using my lappy recently.

Ups and downs in life.

 Had been a helluva emotional period for me knowing that I didn't really do well for my first semester. 

Hard work don't pay off so easily? But I'm definitely not giving up.

School started in the middle of Jan, second semester; Working double hard though.

 My daily routine started but I'm glad that my time table isn't that screwed up as last sem's. 

Life still goes on .. 

Life is such as dilemma, there are just too many things people covet so badly yet knowing that it's impossible to have it. And more of the hardest thing is to be contented w what you have now. 

It's you, that kept me going all the time :)

Goodnight Readers! 

Insecurities, doubts, feelings; It aren't easy for one to handle them.

Over thinking, Assuming kills.

Back to December.

My blogging bug had died or something. Every time when I feel like blogging I'd feel v lazy to do it.

It's exactly 3:00am and I'm still wide awake. I'm having those nights where I have so much on my mind, so much to say and pen down yet can't really portray out how I really feel. I want to abide by the promises made to myself. I always wish I'll have super powers so that I could read minds, hate to be kept in suspense especially from my love ones. Had the most bizarre dream for consecutively 3 days. It felt so real, I kept running; running for my life & this dream seems to progress everyday. I'm tired. 

Teach me what to do, lead me. 

What's best for me?

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Drastic Changes

When “Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts.

Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class.

Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka.

Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex.

Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?

When protection meant wearing a helmet?

When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?

Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero?

Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest.

War was only a board game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.

The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?

And we couldn't wait to grow up?”

-Author Unknown

 -Tumblr

Goodnight Readers.

Life had been mundane few weeks back due to school  projects and assignments ... 

Turning in and waking up at odd hours was just plain horrible. I've lacked of motivation, determination and confidence in doing almost everything, it's like when you worked so hard for something yet things just don't turn out to be the way you expect it to be eventually. Sometimes I would rather choose to lay in bed w the curtain drawn down and do absolutely nothing than telling myself repeatedly that I need to start being productive ...

No one could justify the decision you've made but can only respect for it takes a lot of courage for one to do so. It might be absurd and selfish though. As much as one tries not to think about it, it will always be an haunting thought at the end of the day. So what now?

I'm still glad I met you, really do. 

Had been neglecting this space of my lately. 

I guess I need to do a proper update sooooooon. 

Anywayssss, 

It's a formality to legalise human rights.

My right to choices.
My right to decisions.
My right to love.
My right to speak.
21, it's about time.

Independence day. 

Those nights where you have second thoughts about everything and nothing feels right anymore ..

生活并不完美，但并不代表它不美。

多看看你生活当中美的部分，

否则我们永远会有羡慕不完别人的人生。

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Every year when my birthday is arriving, I'll get this hurricane meets paranoid feeling, constant worrying about nothing, moreover it's my 21st birthday this year. Seriously I'm not awaiting that day to arrive,
not at all. I always thought that having big parties is something v cool or rather fun for my friends/family.

I don't know ..

Until I attended several birthday parties this year. 

You'll have your family, relatives, a clique of primary, secondary, poly friends, and close friends, so after everyone joined in the choir of the birthday song, what's left for them is "errr okay I shall just stick around and wait for my turn to take pictures w the birthday girl, meanwhile I shall just pretend as if I'm enjoying the party and look cool".
The awkwardness in the party ..

But still, it's when everyone who are close to you attending the party, taking their time to spend the day w you and sending you their best wishes. 

It shows something .. 

I don't need any BIG parties, I don't need tons of present .. 

just a small ones where I can spend time w all of my love ones, that's enough for me. 

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Hey, I don't know what's your motive in doing this. Everything you said, the things that you assume in your own way to have a conclusion on your own. If you wanna continue doing this, go ahead ..

People can see what's your motive, simply all the texts that you'd send .. it's enough to show. 

Everything I do/say, I think of you first. I can't believe what I'd saw. 

It takes years to build this friendship w you, and it takes seconds to lose it 

The best part was, you just destroyed this friendship yourself and I don't understand why. 

Take good care of yourself. Still love you most.

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You don't have to 'try' to truly love someone.
Struggling. mind and heart.
If, if you understand how I feel .. 

Was speaking to a very close friend yesterday, and i was kind of intrigued by whatever he said.

Came more of as a shock though, but I am grateful and glad that we'd that talk.
Many of the times I find myself way too nonchalant and apathetic but I never seen it as a problem, not till you raise this up. I am quite a quitter, whenever something happened, i quit; give up, try seeking another alternative or walk away, just simply make my escape. I never thought of how to solve certain problems because I fear that something would go wrong or I'll worsen the situation.
I need to stop quitting.

Those words were everything to me. 

Why do words flow better when I'm agitated?
It's like I can't word blog anymore because I'll end up deleting the whole chunk of meaningless text ..
Anyway I had a great week, as always the awesome friends are always there .. :) 
Everything will just get even better.