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Jerbel,Shuman

There's a little truth behind every just kidding, a little curiosity behind every just wondering, a little knowledge behind every I don't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care.
So how much do you know me?

If you don't like me, just go away.

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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Minnie Bangz! ♥

I'm finishing my storybook :) Time to borrow another one on Friday.

How's life for you? How are you? Are you missing me like how I miss you everyday?

Do you even think of me, even if it's just a second. Are you used to the life without me?

Forgotten me already? These questions had been constantly pondering on my mind.

It's been quite some time since I last talk to you, and I seriously miss your voice!

I've no idea what to do now.

Okay went Clementi stadium with Joix Minnie bangs Clarissa to take photos for our assignment that is due next week & I'm still kind of stuck with certain things.

UT this coming Friday, trainings during weekends, competition next week!

What a busy life I'm having now & I'm still a little not used to the life without you, with me.

It's 1st July tml, less than 30 days you'll be enlisted soon,

and I still don't know what to do next. Sigh

Its time for bed. Goodnight People

You're always on my mind.

11:58pm

There's million reason for you to go, but if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes to turn this around.

-Lifehouse - Whatever it takes -

我想你,好想你.你呢 ?

10:39am

Monday, June 28, 2010

Back to read storybooks again, ' Danielle Steel' - Leap of Faith.

At least when I'm going home alone or when I got nothing to do I will start to read,

not thinking too much again.

School was alright, pretty hectic due to assignment, trainings, competitions.

Tired.

"Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken.
but to start all over again and create something even better."

I still miss you badly everyday :(

sarang hae yo.

11:45am

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Toy Story 3, Sex and the city 2.

Enjoyed myself though my mind was still filled with you.

I'll wait till the date I give myself, I will.

If you're not responding, I've no idea what to do anymore :(

because I know I can't do much either

You won't know how much I wanna hear it out from you,

how much I wanna tell you and let you know how important you are to me.

I love you, ben.

8:26pm

Will you feel anything if I'm really gone one day?

I feel tired, but I wanna think of you more.

Please tell me how you feel now, please :(

GoodNight People

3:06am

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Suddenly, I miss your voice.

Do I still mean anything to you? Do I still stand something in your heart?

Sometimes I just wonder.

You'll never know how much I miss you :(

You're always on my mind.

Truth hurts

12:00am

Friday, June 25, 2010

If someone leaves you, you'll treasure the person even more

because you'd lose them once and it's enough.

I miss you

3:47pm

It had been 6weeks

I miss you :(

9:30am

Thursday, June 24, 2010

'Nobody is responsible for your own happiness, only you are.

Being happy/positive is a choice.

Don't be emotionally weak, we have to grow to be emotionally stronger everyday.

There are too many problems everyday in every stage of our lives,

we cannot avoid them, we can only learn how to handle/manage them.

In hospitals, there are so many patients fighting for their lives. Some with cancers,

others with terminal diseases. They want to see the next sunrise. They might not get to see themselves graduating from school, they might not be able to see themselves getting married, they might not be able to enjoy their families' companionship anymore.'

An offline message from my elder sister and I think its very true, thanks sis.

She's coming back from overseas this Saturday!

*Can't wait!* *Jump brows*

I miss you badly ._.

How about you?

11:00pm :(

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I miss you

I'm so affected by it, I thought alot about it& I feel that things are not that simple as it is.

I'm affected by that message, really affected. I need to reflect back again and get it over,

at least soon.

PLEASE ACCEPT THE FACT! :( he's gone, not coming back ever again

wake up!

I'll still wait till the limit I give myself. Well, I'm such a failure

Sometimes I just wish I can tell you how I feel now :(

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Just saw the 'boo' that you'd made for me for that 4months. Cried out :'(

I really hate the feeling, I miss you more than anything else.

I can't text you, can't call you and stuff. Its tearing me apart but what can I do.

I really miss you badly :'( are you missing me like how I do.

6:40 PM

If you already blacklisted me, every little things I'd done or

even just simple comment will be bad.

When you don't hear my explaination and just assume that everything you see or think is the way it is then you're not giving me chance to explain at all.

I'd done so much, waited for so long I wouldn't even do stupid things to lose you again.

If you say that I'm not simple as you think then its very hurting, even my

friends don'tsay that to me.

We haven't been meeting for weeks, you can't just see it from your own perspective,

conclude this way and leave me.

If you really love me that much, even how people say me or what you will definitely ask me first before concluding that its all my fault for this.

Initially its my fault, but I'm mending it, changing for the better but you don't even gave me a chance to explain anything to you.

Its painful. I still can't accept the fact but I'm trying.

The people that I can't live without can live without me, yet I'm still crying badly here.

If you are mine, you will come back to me :(

I still love you, I'm sorry.

Monday, June 21, 2010

If someone wants to be part of your life, they will make an effort to be in it.

So don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

- tumblr.

When you wanna give up, don't give up half way but all the way because you will feel more hurt if you're half way stuck there, thanks for reminding.

I'm sorry, I really hope time could turn back, really

& Just wanna say I never lie, never!

I need you, but you don't need me anymore.

I'm not worth, you're not coming back and I'm accepting the fact.

Its time to let go, when I'm not your no.1 anymore.

last post for you.

I will be happy.

21June;10am

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Knowing that you're gonna be enlist next month made my heart sank.

That feeling was indescribable. Anyway, I didn't attend school today, had slight fever,

cough and mainly I had not enough sleep :/

Life have been pretty hectic due to school, tests, trainings, competitions.

There are many things I would wish to hate on and grumble about but at this age I have to act like I'm everything but a baby.

I'm adapting to new changes, everything had changed though I really hate it but everything changes over time be it friendship or relationship.

I believe two years down the road , there will be new changes and I'm not afraid of it right now, I'll be working my ass off ensuring that my life will turn for even better and of course at the same time I'll definitely prove to you that I'm really changing, for the better.

Lynette Sim! I'm happy for you, tony is coming back tml! :D

It's 11:11 now. I'd made a wish, I really hope it will come true.

GoodNight people.

I still love you most

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Everything I do reminds me of you.

Had a nightmare last night, it seems so real that I could end up crying when I woke up.

How scary it is :(

You thought that I'd move on, but I can tell you I haven't, yet I'm still stuck with you.

If we are meant to be we will be together, if we aren't then that's too bad.

I don't know what it means, when I'm trying to get close to you I fear that you'll think that its irritating or something. When I'm trying to drift apart alittle so that you'll have the time to think of what you really want, you will think that I'd already moved on.

I've no idea what to do but all I want to say is no matter what I'm not gonna giving up.

I'm not dwelling in the past either

Take care yourself :) I'll be fine.

Still love you most

GoodNight people.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

When you love someone, when you truly love someone, that person becomes part of you they become your life, your everything. He change you and he inspire you in so many different ways that are indescribable. How do you let go of the only thing that keeps you going? The only thing that keeps you strong? Loving someone with all you have is letting go fear. It is growing because when you love someone whole heartedly, you let go of yourself.

So how do you let go of someone you truly care about? I don't think I can.

I think no matter what happens, whether you're together or not.

They will always be in your heart, always.

Everything can be controlled, its up to you to make up your mind and do it.

I believe I can.

Though I'm not as significant anymore

I still love you, as much;

Monday, June 14, 2010

I'll run away with you;

Happy 10th.

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Met up with mingmin for lunch today & got my hair trimmed. I'm still not used to it! o.O

Haven't been training with hornets for quite some time because of my injured ankle,

really hope it will recover soon so I can join them for competition this week or the following competitions.

How's life for you?

Seriously, for me it isn't what I expect & at times I really hate the way I handle things.

Things had happened, I guess all I needa do now is to accept the fact, do whatever I can and move on with life. Frankly speaking, I don't feel happy as before. How wish if there's a 'Ctrl Z' button to turn back time in life so I won't feel so miserable now but it will never happen, never. I miss the old you too ._.

If I could put my feelings into words, I would. Trust me I really would.

'If i'm running away, will you run together with me?'

I love you ._.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Haven't been updating regularly. Had lost vibe in blogging :/

Life had been pretty down for me recently, though I really hate it life needa go on too.

Sometimes I really hope I could turn back time,

at least to the point of time where things were fine for us, but it's impossible :(

Celebrated Alexdaddy's birthday. Marina square, Waraku, Esplanade, Singapore flyer.

Hope you enjoyed yourself :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dad.